Quest for life

At this point of time I am going through a difficult phase of my life. It doesn't feel as difficult until I start thinking about it deeply. Then the reality sets in and I feel "oh my God what have I gotten myself into". Come to think of it, everything is in your mind. You can feel happy and sad by just thinking differently about the same situation. It is your heart which makes noises and doesn't let you be at peace when things are not going the way it desires. There is another thing that makes us miserable and that is our expectations from others. We give but expect back the return. I am doing the same and that is what is causing me misery. I am feeling that I should get back some of what I have been giving. Worse still, I am not only feeling it but demanding it from the other in so many words. Makes me feel very small but can't help it. I think heart has taken over my mind for sometime. However.....I know that I shall be alright soon. My heart will stop bein

I am in a strange mood today. Nothing special or nothing wrong but still it is not on a good side. I don't like moody people but to tell you the truth I must be one of the moodiest one. I hope that this mood swing is over soon. I don't like to be this moody.

So, today I was listening to U2 and the song 'With or Without you' which is my favorite song. And that for the first time I was not charged emotionally while listening to this particular song. And wow, what a good thing it was. It got me thinking. Why is it that it is necessary for us to live with or without someone? Is it because we are positioned by the society in such a manner that we always feel it that way or nature has made us that way? Why is it that there has to be a 'You' in our lives. Why can't we feel complete all on our own? God has sent us alone and he takes us back like that too. Still almost all our lives we are after this 'Mrigtrishna' (mirage) of happiness which we feel comes from being with someone. I feel happy alone too. I would like to share my happiness with someone but this does not mean that the other person influences my state of mind by being or not being there. I feel happy with myself and I feel that if I am happy with me then

Being Positive Does it pay to be positive all the time? I was just wondering why people insist that one should stay positive all the time. I am a happy go lucky girl but even I feel down sometimes and there are times when I just want to feel a teeny- weeny bit sorry for myself just give loads of sympathetic talk to my sorry self. It gives me excuse to do nothing and it can also give me excuse to eat chocolates which my trainer has strictly prohibited me. Sometimes I feel that all good things are related to sin. Why should bad girls have all the fun? Just imagine just for eating chocolates one has to feel sad and lonely. Is it fair? Anyhow, am reading ‘The breakthrough experience” by Dr D’martini. The book says that we should live a balanced life and should be able to see opportunity in every crisis and disaster in every elated moment. Until we see the balance in life we can’t be grateful and unless we are in deep gratitude life will keep attracting what we are trying to avoid

WHEN INTUITION GOES WRONG When I started this blog I had thought that I shall write regular columns on my travel experiences and shall start a journey to be a successful blogger. Alas, isn’t it amazing how many plans we make. If I was to make a wall out of the plans that I make, I am sure it shall beat the Great Wall of China many times over. I travelled to Nepal, Kenya, Dubai, US and Morocco in last 8 months and no articles to show for it. Well..... I was busy, had no time, very hectic job and the biggest one “I have to work 6 days a week” are the usual excuses that I try to give my other self which keeps shaming me on my behaviour. The self scolding we do may be enough to really put us down but then our other confident self comes to rescue and says but all of these things are true and that I have been BUSY. Ok so enough of the excuses. I have decided to write my experiences on the blog. I am not going to limit it to travel experiences. This is going to be a place where I let my